Be Mine- David Gray

sometimes i think i'm morphing into the emotional men who write such sappy but wonderfully soothing songs. i've become melancholic and potentially needy to goodness-knows-what. shouldn't it be men who cry out, "be mine, be mine?"

i've finally found the time to do some research on DSLRs, and gosh nikon is just whopping expensive; a 6-megapixel from them costs more than a canon 8-megapixel. i had contemplated buying from soong's friend who's selling her DSLR, complete with lenses, but now i realise that perhaps i'm still too much of an amateur to make full use of such a comprehensive package.

it is actually rather frightening for me to think about photography as a career, but now that i've dipped my toe in nothing seems like a better choice. very few people in singapore have embarked in this, but i want to do more than take pictures of myself, you know? i may not have israel or the beautiful chiang mai in my portfolio; not even the classic CDB skyscraper views or chinese ornaments, but i think the pictures i take come not from observation but from experience. that's more important for me i think.

perhaps reading stuff like Time has also influenced my decision. i genuinely want to show the truth with my camera, to be right in the heart of the lebanese-israeli fight, next to bird crouching on the crocodile, or to take photos that help poorer kids get money for proper food, clean water and education. i was really disappointed when anita kwan said that singaporean youths these days aren't cultured enough to be doing bigger things like that. i'm sorry, but working for lime and such has never crossed my mind. it's not that i have overbearing confidence, but i want to do so much more for people. i hope i'm not cussing myself.

I blogged @ 3:18 PM